Registering an alias

I went to the local municipal office today to register my alias.

Now, I can use my alias for daily life.

Yet another step towards becoming me.

Moved out

Officially moved out today.

Now I am on my own.

I hope this is a step forward in the right direction.

Told the kid

Told the kid today about my condition. He was indeed shocked and started to cry. But he was sleepy (just before bedtime) so I told him I will explain more when I have the chance.

Made me feel so bad to see him cry... but he needs to know.

Another step forward.

Got the keys

Got the keys to my rental apartment. The next step is to furnish it and move out.

Expensive... with the rental, the commission, insurance, and that's just a bare room. Then all the furniture and appliances (which I have yet to finish buying)... it is going to cost a bomb.

Moving out

An important decision has been made. I will be moving out in order to begin full-time transition. Spent last week looking for a new place, found something suitable (small, just enough to stay on my own and fulfill the basic needs of an accommodation), just waiting to confirm if the owner is okay to rent it to me.

So chances are I will be staying in the neighbouring town, hopefully land myself a job (going for an interview in two weeks) and get used to living full-time before the next step.

Of course, that is if everything turns out well. Life can sometimes throw many surprises.

Clothes clothes clothes

28 dresses
14 tops
5 skirts
3 pants
3 jackets
2 cardigans

13 pairs of shoes
4 pairs of sandals

And that's excluding home wear, sleep wear, underwear.

And now, everything packed into 4 boxes. It's going to be a while before I see them again... :(

Meeting June

I met June (who runs The T Project) today.

It has been a while since I last met someone from the T community. Thanks to Fanny for recommending that I donate my unwanted stuff to The T Project, I managed to meet June today to pass her all the stuff. She shared with me some stories of those who stay at the shelter (under The T Project), and it made me realise just how lucky I am. I mean, I do have problems of my own, but compared to these other girls, my own story is a walk in the park.

Hopefully, whatever I donated will go a little towards helping them.

Another step forward

Transition plan.

Step 1 (quit job) completed.

Next:

1. Move overseas.
2. Get a form of income.
3. Come out to the local community and gain their understanding and support.
4. Transition.

This will probably take more time than I thought it would, but I guess it is better to take a step at a time, than try to rush. More haste, less speed.

Wish me luck!

So I met my siblings wearing a striped top and white skirt.

No one freaked out. Cool.

Yet another small step forward.

Telling a friend

Told a friend about my condition. Someone I have known for 22 years. She took it quite well, and understood that while appearances may change, I am still me.

One down, many more to go.

Lonely Valentine's Day

Lonely day... and it is February 14th, Valentine's Day.

Still, making progress. After four and a half months of HRT, my breasts are starting to hurt a bit... and getting a bit bigger.

Now to work on the voice...

Sharing with my first friend

I shared my condition with my friend today. The first time I told a friend.

He is actually my classmate from school, and I have been seeing him for depression (he is a psychiatrist). Today, I shared with him the underlying cause of all that stress.

He told me that he has since other patients with GID too, and offered advice on transition. So glad to be able to share this with someone outside the family. It does give me confidence to tell more of my friends (slowly) about my condition.

Moving out

Today, they moved back to their hometown. So I am alone here. I don't know how things will turn out, but I do hope we will eventually be together again. But for now, I have to learn to stand on my own.

Telling my mother

Told my mother. While she cried, at least she didn't faint.

Telling my sister

Told my sister. She could better understand since she did a module on gender studies back in her university days.

Next would be mother.

Another small step

Started on another small step today.

Started on my meds.

新しい人生に向かって踏み出す。

Telling my brother

Told my brother about my condition today. He didn't overreact, and in fact offered to help in any way he can.

I am so glad I chose to tell him before the rest of the family. Siblings who grew up together do share a very special bond.

Now I know roughly how to go about telling people... next would be my sister.

Decisions...

Things have taken a turn...

Likely to lose my family. I will probably need to start thinking about finding a place to rent and stay by myself. And a job to feed myself.

A family that won't be staying together. Who knows, maybe we will be back together again in the future? But it is not likely to be the case in the near future...

I will have to start thinking about what I want to do for a living.

I will have to start thinking about where I want to stay.

Somerset!

Oh I really love the area around Somerset MRT station. My favourite shops are all around that area.

Zara
Mango
Forever 21
Cotton On
Muji
H&M
Dorothy Perkin
New Look
Mark and Spencer
MDS
Uniqlo

I know where I am headed when the next Great Singapore Sale comes!

Oh, and I managed to get my Progynova at the pharmacy today. Hurray!

Progynova

I got my prescription from Dr Tsoi today for Progynova.

It was out of stock at the pharmacy nearby, so I will have to go elsewhere to try and buy it.

But still, it is yet another small step towards becoming me.