I am going through a rough patch recently.
I have been drinking daily. It has become my way of dealing with the stress.
My temper has taken a turn for the worse again. I am taking it out on my loved ones.
What's all this stress about? I would say the trigger is work related. A new environment at work, with a new job scope, new people that I have to work with. The usual bad traffic every once in a while when commuting to and fro work.
But underlying all that is the inherent stress that I face, internally. This difference between who I am, and who I present myself to be. Every day, this difference causes internal stress that eats away at my threshold. On top of that would be the fear of rejection, and thus not being able to share this even with my loved ones.
On good days, I can manage the stress, and I drink less. On bad days, I need to vent off the steam, and my loved ones get my nonsense even though they don't deserve it. And I drink more.
My body and my loved ones are the ones who suffer the most. When can I bridge the gap between this difference, and end this needless suffering?
